8 days until I'm done with school foreverrrrrrrr!

i think that what i'm going through right now with don is probably the hardest thing i've ever had to go through.  he was in town this weekend for easter, and tomorrow morning he'll be gone again and i won't see him until the beginning of may. even then, i will only see him for about 3 days and then i have to say goodbye yet again. i thought it would get easier the more i had to do it, but it hasn't. it actually gets worse.  because every day i fall more and more in love with him and it just makes it that much harder to be away from him. i didn't think it was possible to love another human being that much. it just makes me want to scream i love him so much, and it absolutely breaks my heart every time i have to say goodbye to him. i don't care how dramatic this may sound, it's the truth. i know that in less than 6 months we'll be married but for right now this sucks ass.

ugh.

i just chopped my hair off. i wasn't really planning on doing anything that drastic, but the lady that was cutting it was really going to town so i just let her. who cares? it will grow back soon enough anyway. it's just got lots of layers and it's pretty choppy. it's cute. i've had it similar to this before. 

yep.

that's all for now.

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so this is the new year.
and i don't feel any different.
the clanking of crystal
explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

so this is the new year
and I have no resolutions
for self assigned penance
for problems with easy solutions

so everybody put your best suit or dress on
let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
as thirty dialogues bleed into one

i wish the world was flat like the old days
then i could travel just by folding a map
no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
there'd be no distance that can hold us back.

there'd be no distance that could hold us back

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[	Current Music	|	Sufjan Stevens - Detroit, Lift Up Your Weary Head!	]

I really cannot believe that school starts up again in less than a week. I'm kind of dreading it because I'm taking 6 classes, but I have a good feeling about it and it will help me graduate sooner. Not that anyone really cares, but here are the classes I'm taking; consumer behavior, retail buying, retail management, apparel analysis, human behavior and leadership, and industrial/organizational psychology. Come on, how great does the apparel analysis class sound? I freaking love my major, seriously. Call me a dork but all of those classes sound insanely interesting. Sometimes I feel bad that I'm not going into a helping profession like social work, but whatev. It's not for everyone.

My boyfriend has totally gotten me hooked on 97.1. I love Deminski and Doyle, I can't help it.

I have also gotten hooked on curling my hair. It turns out my hair looks really cute with banana curls and they actually hold for a long time. Who would have thought?

Oh, and my grandma is doing better and is now in a nursing home for physical therapy. I went and visited her today and it was nice to see her up and about instead of laying on a hospital bed with tubes everywhere. She will probably never be able to live on her own again though, so we have to figure out what to do once PT is over. Everything will work out for the best though so I'm trying not to worry about that.

Well, it's off to bed for me. I wanted to write about my new year's eve, but I have to wake up for work in 7 hours. Back to the grind...

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my grandma had congestive heart failure this morning and is in the hospital. she will be hooked up to breathing machines for the next few days until she can breathe on her own, if that ever happens again. god, i hate the fact that i have to even say if. needless to say i'm completely torn up about this. i just got home from the hospital and my eyes are all puffy from crying. i hate seeing her like that, with tubes and machines and everything. by the time i left she could at least understand what people were saying and she was responding somewhat with head nods. so even if she doesn't make it at least she got to hear that i love her and i got to hold her hand. the only thing that's helping me through this is that my grandpa is up there waiting for her. so please please just keep her in your thoughts and prayers for me, no matter what ends up happening.

If anyone cares, I deleted my myspace the other day. There's no particular reason why I did it, I just decided I wanted to and did it. Knowing me I'll probably make a new one in a few days, but for now I'm happy not having one. Yep!

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I'm watching Dr. 90210 (which is very addictive, by the way) and that led me to ask this question. If you could get any kind of plastic surgery for free, would you get it done? If so, what procedure would you get? I personally never would get any, but I'm just curious about what everyone else thinks.

Ladies:

This is kind of a personal question, but I want to know if anyone else has this problem. Does anyone else have one particular bra that makes your boobs a really weird shape? Because I definitely am experiencing that right now and it's annoying.